Ivy Roller

I seriously suck at it.  The blogging, that is.  While looking for the perfect demotivator to capture which aspect about it (consistency, quality, etc.) I seem to fall the shortest at, I stumbled upon this:

Now that is perfect.  In fact, all of the featured demotivators at www.despair.com are fabulous for the same fundamental reason—they’re true.  As for this one in particular, it’s dead on.  The vast majority of blogs blow.  You generally won’t find people who really have something to say publishing their insight and ideas on a web blog.  Personally, I decided it was time to kick the book into high gear and have been revising and editing some of the hundreds of scraps I’ve put together over the past couple of years.

In addition to this, I’ve also been busy writing my re-enrollment statement for Columbia University, which I submitted earlier today.  It’s still hard to believe I’m actually going back to Columbia.  Not even a year ago I had all but abandoned that dream.  Yet here I am… months and months of hard work and determination have paid off, and I can hardly wait to return to New York City.  The experiences of the past two years—everything from psychosis to homelessness—have been humbling, and I now find myself grateful for my suffering and struggling.  To think that I could not only come back from such devastating illness and circumstances, but that I could be even stronger and better than before was unimaginable to me not too long ago.  I’m finally beginning to know what contentment feels like, and it comes from within.

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